darren shan book 12: sons of destiny

hmm..how to put this?

i felt both happy and sad at the same time.

sad because one of my favorite series had ended and happy because even though every cell in my brain was screaming "seriously???!?!" for the second part of the book towards the ending, fearing that it was going to turn into another "nineteen years later", the ending actually felt right in some way (though i'm not gonna lie, even though it's always best to create sequels and such to an already good-ending book/movie/tv series, i'm still open to Darren Shan actually go on with his original plan and continue the sagas till book 24...hey, i need some good reading, so sue me.)

call me a drama queen, but as i read those last pages, i had that slow-grin-creeping-onto-my-face and actually felt all glow-y with calm-fresh-early-morning-wind-in-your-face and shit as Darren did as ''dawn was approaching as i began to disperse into nothingness'' (and yes, i am gagging endlessly as i typed that last sentence.tapi merasa perlu jadi yaudah.ahaha)

and also, i had a bit of a chuckle i bet everyone who've read the book had when i re-read the title of the last book *grins*

so yeah, i really really really enjoyed the book :))

looking forward to read The Demonata series, The Saga of Larten Crepsley (not too interested yet actually, but will read someday), Koyasan, The Thin Executioner, and The City Trilogy next!

**check out the official website. it has book reviews complete with authors' full-length commentary on each book. and they have a complete international book covers gallery, where even the Indonesian version exist *nationalprideohyeah*!

edit: a couple of days later i thought differently: that the ending was crap and felt forced.and a waste of my time. but i'm still going to re-read it someday. maybe my opinion will change again for all i know *indecisive max*. ah well, it was good when it lasted so i'm ok with it~

manga update 1

interesting ones, the "hey, it's finally published in Indonesia!"-ones, and ongoing updates
(gramedia cinere mall)

• Green Tea relaxation maskhahaha
• Me= yellow shirt; astrid=blue; om lilik=green...
• UDW
• JakPets for doggie treats
  
• Manson & Zeus got oleh2 doggie treats also from Astrid :)!
• Tonkotsu Chashu Ramen at Sanpachi........red.
• Green tea cream dorayaki + caramel pudding Kamome
  
• Edna & Elmo
• Pilih2 lagu tolol
• Yakitate Japan manga
• play catch the tennis ball with the dogs
• home

:))

green!

just about to take a shower when i dumped my gembolan onto the table (was hijacking my mom's bathroom) and saw green :)

geektastic

last saturday i was taken here at Mall Taman Anggrek of all places (as part of his personal AhongTour. fyi :weeks before he journeyed to Pluit Junction, Mall Taman Anggrek again, and Kelapa Gading):
yang isinya begini: *shit, not this pic...shall upload next time

i have found my haven and am now planning to rob it clean, then die in peace.

a reminder that your desk looks like THIS:

but-but-but i'm finally re-learning Japanese again!! look!LOOK!!!


........woman clean.up.

delusions.

we're all delusional at some point, realizing it/them or not.

accepting it/them or not.

being controlled by it/them or not.

i've found out what my delusion/delusions is/are.

knew about it for the longest time, and on this matter only will i make an exception on letting it be.

why though? why volunteer in being controlled by a fragment of your own sad imagination?

hey, everyone needs their own personal happy pills every once in a while.

we never know when they'll come in handy. you know, self-motivating-wise.

have you found yours?

amusing midnight internet findings

up first, is the scary shit you find on the internet by aimless midnight browsing

then comes the things you find as hilarious hilarious inside jokes that makes you tear up
(when, in an actual decent working-brain time slot, yes you'd find it funny,but not that...exaggerated) HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAH ih ke gep.

gilaaa karma tuh emang ada ya: gw nemu ini di ayu gara2 mau ngasih link 'cantik' buat kalian (ayu duluan yg keketik sebelum gw inget ada cara baru buat share link yg bs nge-tag nama)
*tapi tetep, my request to not be tagged in any photos still stands yak.bahaha

lastly, is the unexpected conversations you make with unexpected people in unexpected interesting topics

with my cousin Bito on his creative writing progress.
nice to know that your knack of writing inevitably very very long entries runs in the family.
hahaha.

Mr. Brooks

browsing for Kay Panabaker for my previous post meant browsing for her sister, Danielle Panabaker, whom I remembered from Shark and Sky High and whom

I cannot believe I forgot in Mr.Brooks.

Mr. Brooks is one of those movies that I/my mom randomly bought

and turned out to be surprisingly wicked :)

a 2007 movie about a guy with a serial killing addict alter-ego.

No Ordinary Family

dad = the Thing in Fantastic Four

mom = Dexter's girlfriend in "Dexter"

daughter = Danielle Panabaker's sister (been wanting to see her on screen for a while)

brother = crrapp, i've seen this kid before......*wiki* ah! he was on 'Shorts' and the kid i the Flash costume in 'Daddy Day Care'!

so, with my friend's statement broken (she told me that the cast was full of new faces we don't know of.wrong), i tried watching it yesterday.

the dvd has 4 discs with 5 episodes each.

I am now continuing to watch episode 6 as i write.

i was offered to get this dvd by the mba2 dvd last time i wet dvd-hunting, but refused in fear that my superhero fantasy will be ruined in shame by this unknown new series.

but then my friend introduced me to it, and despite my skepticism of my friend (known to eat up all kinds of genre, regardless how good or bad it really is), as the superpower-sucker i am, i borrowed her dvd's. and liked it.

i was kind of surprised to find

1. it didn't take them a painfully long time to believe they had superpowers.

2. nice touch, the parents automatically have trusted confidants to confide in. lucky them. and both are super geeks.hahaha nice.

3. oh wow, 5 episodes and no sex scene? amazing.

hot damn, this is a real family-friendly tv series!!!!! WOW

of course there were bad critiques everywhere about the show sucking (even CANCELLING the series. seriously, frickin 90210 got cancelled then revived for a second season and this doesn't????)....
and the mom is quite the typical movie bitch sometimes (it's obvious that she was in the wrong but then uses her 'right' to defend herself by justifying her actions and shifting blame on her husband AND having the last word. my friends say i'm sort of a feminist, but even i can't condone this.we need to fix the 'emancipation'/girl power/whatever it is that makes these bitches bithces.)....
then there's--HEY! isn't that.....BELER???!!!! OMG IT'S BELER!!! this guy went from this (extremely fucked up) down-on-luck 'hero' in "The Collector", to a villain assassin with telekinetic powers!! Revenge of Beler :D!

as my friend Wibi said, "be good with an introvert person".

hahahha

BELEEERRR------!!!!

wait, omg, is that....EUH, it's that guy who plays jasper and sokka! geez man, get off my screen.

anyway, point is, even with those negative points, this series is still good for a real light watch for fun and superpower geeks :3!

bathroom sitting.

the phrase 'all the good things will end up as shit' is no stranger to us.

especially the literal meaning of it when it comes to...food.

so sad to think that all that pretty well-thought presentation of it will end up as a hunk of, well, shit.

but then i try to remember again and again that the purpose of doing such a thing is so we'd be interested in eating, thus, absorbing all the nutrients our body needs. so we won't get bored and stop eating.
*don't mind me and my 'theory', i only do this to justify the actions so i won't end up being all pointlessly sad and uselessly over thinking anytime i eat something pretty looking and not plainly enjoying the visual pleasures along with the explosion of taste buds instead*


the reason i don't like holding activities with friends at my house isn't because i get irked by the loud noises they make or the mess they leave after. it's because i hate that feeling of 'abandonment' when the time comes for them to go home and being blank and suddenly forgetting the good memory that just happened, then having to wonder 'now what do i do?'.
i hate that feeling of being pointlessly lost.

useless thoughts like these that makes me want to cut my head open and throw my brain down a hill somewhere and just sit in the fields of flowers.

good thing there's humor applied to these kinds of topics (besides the angsty ones) that can be happy pills and makes you able to just laugh at it and finally forget those thoughts were ever formed in the first place.

Game Of Thrones

4 episode marathon with giri, 2 plates of pasta, and domino's.

characters i have a soft spot for :

meet Arya. she's 9.

Tyrion.
the magnificent bastard. possibly Hans Landa's drinking buddy.
funny how he looks like a mix of robbie williams and dr.house when his character is rich in glorious snarky sarcastic lines and women.

Daenerys.
shiny pretty.dragon eggs= awesome.her twin brother is first on my hitlist.
(too bad i couldn't find a movie still where she whacked that dickhead)

Direwolves X3!
and for the murder of Lucy, Jeoffrey will die a slow painful mortifying death.

favorite scene:

martha graham

1. today me and my friend finally made it to UDW.

2. then we went back to her house to watch dvd's. our main plan was to watch Suckerpunch, but the dvd was still bad so we randomly watched Gnomeo and Juliet via her little brother's pick (which i was reluctant to watch at first. final verdict: meeehh. so-so laa). went to citos. went home and posted the post before this one. and while browsing for book cover pictures, i stumbled onto Andy Riley's homepage (mastermind behind Selfish Pigs and Bunny Suicides) , and guess what i found on his second latest post...? ho yeah:

humor shelf

ok, new section! from now on i'm going to (try to) post covers of books that catches my eye/been craving for and/or simply amuses the heck out of me when browsing a bookstore as a reference for myself to actually buy the goddamn books someday.muahaha
**these covers pic's from internet (it was impossible to take pictures there).

-Aksara Bookstore - Citos-

1.

2. 3.4.5.

6.7.
also a superman and spiderman version, but i like this one better.

8.9.
(from the fiction section)

amusing as those above were, as i made a final sweep of re-browsing before i left, i found the grand daddy of them all:

........................
gila.
gila.
GILA.
got to me so bad it literally brought tears to my eyes in the middle of the bookstore.
know what's more awesome? is that i read an excerpt of the book and chuck himself gave his blessing. ahuahuahuahuuaahuahua PRICELESS.

things that i know of at the moment

• i've mostly accepted that my life purpose amongst my friends is to be the one who addresses the damn fat-assed elephant in the room. and to accept that they might not accept it most of the time, but unconsciously do the same thing to me (unprovoked by myself beforehand) and expect me to accept their preachings. can anyone say hypocrite? assholes.
• i understand taking one for the team, but taking one for the team then being bashed in the head by them too? i refuse to be their scapegoat.
  

• if this keeps up, i'm doomed to be an observer only for life.
• now i know firsthand why it's called 'seven deadly sins'. and it's utterly mortifying.
• that my method of writing may never be like those kinds that are singkat padat jelas. and i've (finally) accepted that i need the need to elaborate. so there.
• talking to a brick wall is, as we all know by now, pointless. drilling and smashing through that damn wall also doesn't seem to work apparently *sigh*.
• i hate taking advantage of anything. anything. even as a last resort where even the whole goddamn world knows it's essential to be done. i hate that guilty feeling afterwords. but after being treated as such? i shall wait patiently until a moment presents itself for me, and like an immature child, i shall 'shoot first, ask later' and cause you insufferable damage. and i won't feel guilty afterwords.
• what's wrong in being a 'nice' person? why are you making me feel as if i have to feel guilty for being nice? yes, i'm still adjusting in accepting that part of me (and you know it) so i'm still insecure and your actions got to me a bit , so why do it? would you rather have me as a poser and 'look up to you' as my 'bad' mentor? don't you dare justify your being insecure by putting other people down when your the one prancing around being a pathetic poser. it's just sad.
• i like slipping in 'hard' words in between my writings now and then. yeah sometimes it works, sometimes it's trying too hard, but this is just my way of catching up with my vocabulary. i do kinda feel like i sometimes have to live up to my 'byul' standards. ahahahaha
• a friend kinda surprised me by judging that 'i wasn't trying too hard' on regards of me explaining my school situation in two sentences (i haven't met this guy for years). my first reaction was to bash his head onto the table repeatedly. my second was a uncalled for self-reflection. did i just give up too fast? maybe? and the answer still came as 'no, no you didn't. because you know best when you actually do.'. so my third reaction was to actually appreciate his honesty.
  

vinyl

my 'walk-in' closet finally has a REAL FLOOR *terharu*

before: cement based

AND NOW IT'S VINYL

man it's so pretty i can't stop looking at it and ngelus2 it~~~~


check out the 'made in'...? yeaaaaahhh
say it with me bitches: TAK.DIR.

and the guy who executed this lovely lovely act is Pak Goto. He lives in Ciganjur (god bless his soul) thankfully this is a freelance job for him, so he goes to jakarta every 1-2 weeks. a bloody 7 hours on the road. damn...THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR PRETTY WORK TT^TT

KIA X GAMES 2011 - Aggressive Inline VERT Final

SO.

after a smack on the face regarding the sudden date (i thought it was going to be in june/july so i could maybe maybe save some money to watch it live).

a mistake in the schedule prompting me to wake up pointlessly at 4 am in the morning last friday, only to watch the 2010 re-runs without any Aggressive In-Line Vert (AIL) episodes.

and accidentally waking up the next day at 4am. only to find out there was no schedule at all. and ended up doing house chores instead.

i finally watched the first day re-runs AND the LIVE version of the second day that had AIL VERT FINALS all day yesterday in reasonable time slots thankyouGOD :D :D :D!
they changed the rules a little bit, from two 5 minute runs, to five 2 minute runs or something (will update accurate data later on this) so it was a bit rushed BUT, my, did those people deliver.

this was probably the best roster of contestants ever, so i didn't only have takeshi yasutoko to look forward too. most giving reasonably good airs (still not as high as takeshi's though that sunofabitch).

and though takeshi's score was in a league of his own, he wasn't as amped as last year, but i guess that was because he was preparing to execute a new trick (a 7-7 he said..?). too bad he didn't make it, but i hope to see it in other games (is there any? must look it up.) or ultimately, LIVE AT THE KIA X GAMES 2012 :D. nyahahahahha wish me luck!

you know you're really enjoying yourself when you (genuinely really) couldn't care less about other people and their antics--good or bad. which is basically none of our business--that you tend to dwell on pointlessly when you're idle.

must.get.back.to.this.stateofmind.ASAP.