anything but

i (apparently) have always thought that we'd always talk about our current shitty batch of problems every time we meet after a long time. honestly, sometimes i actually dread these meetings because i still sometimes feel that i don't 'contribute' to my batch of stories, while the other two do because sometimes i just don't feel like it. and then i remember that they sometimes also feel the same way, so it's all good.

turns out it's not always like that, and that we'd meet to just have fun and talk about anything but our problems, and its nice.
again, i'm very happy that we're the kind of people who can be like that.
kind of like a reminder for myself that we don't have to tell others about everything all the time (my personal favorite mode), anytime i get into that oh-my-god-they-suggested-that-i-should-open-up-myself-more-and-rant-ok-i'm-telling-anyone-i-encounter- mode (yes, i do understand that we do need to rant at times, else we'd explode. but we have to be able to read the situation of the 'listening' party as well)
a reminder on how to balance the two.

yes, i'm slow about learning things like that and i'm happy that i don't mind about it.

scraped hands.

i know i should feel bad, but honestly all i feel is...bliss.
and numb.
but calm.
if that's even possible.

what's done is done.
and as much as i hate the self-conflicting situation presented, i don't wish for it to be undone.
my gut's practically shrieking trying to get me to stop, but i can't, not now.
i need this.
but i'm also afraid that this thing--one of the things out of my 'most need' life batch--that i need most would end up being one of my downfalls for breaking that one crucial principle i swore to keep no matter what the situation, creating a fucking domino effect that will make me have to start over from square one.again.
and, again, i cannot go back to that fucking square.

also, i live in a box.
i hate living in a box.
because the thing with boxes and myself is that i get satisfied too easily, and when i finally find out of the better things i could have gotten outside said box, i'd get embarrassed and then turn into this shallow shallow bitch and end up 'discarding'--yes, i might even go as far as erasing all connections in my life with said party--the people i get involved with/situations i get myself into.and i do not want to end up discarding said party.
so besides that stupid box, there's that inevitable reaction to despise also.

ha ha god, ha ha.

Woodkid - Iron

a before-bed find.

love the opening taiko beats.

age of the arrow.

re-watched Disney's Brave trailer today from my "The Help" dvd this morning and remembered i wanted to post this thing:

so apparently 2012's movie weapon of choice is the bow and arrow.
maybe, maybe not though, could be just me being all sensi or something to 'trends'.meh.
but yes i understand that at some point it's bound to happen, so i'm gonna list it down just for fun. i promise. no sarcastic anti-mainstream motives.
seriously.
ooookay, so let's start:

1) Brave (film)

a friend showed me this.fell in love with her hair.aim to watch.

2) The Avengers (film)
watched.Hawkeye's execution was devine.

3) The Hunger Games (film)
haven't watched.meant to read the book ever since stumbling upon this years ago on fan-made crossovers with harry potter and percy jackson (usually hunting for awesome pic's on deviantart).intrigued by that catchy name 'Katniss'. only found out about the storyline when the movie came out this year.
talk about 'dedication' on my reading plans.hahaha

4) Arrow (tv)
remembered finding this while on a browsing rage after watching The Avengers.though sick of the over-used concept of turning basically anything into a more 'gritty' and 'dark' style--mostly comic books, because apparently comic books in general are perceived as 'childish' and 'geeky' (i blame most of the tacky costumes they come up with.ahaha)--i'm still going to watch the pilot.i'm a softy for superheroes movies.

5) Revolution (tv)
same with this one: the cast's look is so stereotypical as what tv series's promo ensemble poster looks like for the past years (...ok that sentence structure is fucked up. to tired to care now, i'll fix it later so shush).
everyone looks the same--good-looking and unnaturally clean & prim for this kind of plot. but i saw the trailer, and like Arrow, will watch the pilot (at least).

*all posters from google or impawards.com

The Avengers

-again, NOT a public movie review, so sorry if anyone ends up here by accident-
just realized that Iron Man was put up front when Captain America is the leader. guess Iron Man's more popular the the Cap'n. meh, marketing strategy.

moving on.
everyone got awesome moments--the one when you can't decide which character is the coolest because the next character's scene keeps on outshining the first and so on--but a bit weird that Thor was out-shined, being a god and all.

the fight scenes were fight scenes.
meaning thank god they didn't feel that they had to slow-mo every single fight scene.
so the blow-by-blow impact was sweet.

I didn't think Thor had some humor
Captain America still delivered
Iron Man too
Hulk.was beyond awesome.
Hawkeye too.i want his arrow pack and i'm even an arrow person.
Black Widow wasn't just a piece of ass.i want her blades and the Chitauri blade-slash-laser staff she used at the final battle.
Maria Hill was too nice.
And Mr. Stan Lee at the end cracked the heck out of me (*scoffs* "There's no such thing as Super Heroes!").

All in all there were veeeerry little things to protest about; i was all sparkles and squeals, smacking and punching my friend (and vice versa) all the while when the best parts were up; but wished i got a more active crowd--instead of the mba2 next to me whose legs kept vibrating the seats and didn't stop even when i kicked her chair several times, also the annoying girls next to my friend who did the classic nonstop''ohmygod whatsgoingtohappentoironman??? *annoyingsqueal/laughs*" noisy comments and BBing-- so i could 'respond' my ass off while watching (got out a "HULK SMASH!!!!!" tho :}).

I am so watching for the second time.and considering a third time if i snap and have enough budget to spare.hoho

of course, looking for the poster leads to an all-things-related browsing frenzy, so, yeah my eyes are tired now.can't resist premiere night.
http://impawards.com/2012/avengers_ver21.html
http://www.hollywoodreporter.com/gallery/avengers-premiere-scarlett-johansson-chris-hemsworth-robert-downey-311191
etc

"mau sampe kapan?"

colorquiz

*again, so sorry if anyone stumbles onto my blog because of the title.too tired to care about a different title.haha

last month i kept finding this quiz on other peoples blog, so i decided to try it out for myself out of curiosity...for 4 times since that time.
so about 15 minutes ago was my 5th try of the test.
and it was still right.
with even more accurate additional info's.

whoaaaa uber creepy ('good' creepy though).

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