yesterday was fun >:D

original plans :
1. ketemu lalataya di simpang jam stgh11
2. ke kampus kumpulin uas eksperimentasi
3. potong susunan sumpit dp4 di bengkel, sambil lalataya ketemu mio buat nanya2 belanda yaddayadda

execution :
1. karena malemnya lupa nyicil sumpit/kelapa : gebug2 rendaman sumpit pk ulekan d taman dalem.
2. lalataya ke rumah boy karena boy blom siap2 packing buat sumpit ke kampus, dan tnyt mio gajadi ketemuan
3. & etc.....
-- tirta anugrah buat ngeprint xperimen + sundalan si lalat -- gagal mau jenguk tendy pk pisang ijo krn rupanya dia tertidur karena sakit ato apalah.haha -- chelsea dvd (i found 24, dan udh TAMAT...fucking 4 dvd's to buy tho.yg masing2 cm 2 episode. babi.) -- balubur -- es kelapa muda & timun suri di nyawang -- DP A, dimana kita tinggal dan menetap sampai jam 4-5an.PRODUKTIF tingkat DEWA >:D -- boy ngurus sumpit (yg ditemani secara mental dan fisik praktek oleh lalat) n kelapa (yg dibantu oleh bor agam dan pembelahan cantik oleh agam dan circular saw bengkel DP.muchas gracias!) -- lalataya motong2 sundalan sampe selesai -- lalat dpt ide ahei buat naro foto tp ga merusak tembok -- dpt stok lagu2 dr ipit :) -- went home and COMPLETELY forgot i bought onepiece #51, 24, n got stok lagu from ipit -- moko muncul n mkn the grill (steak n tea for rp13.000 saja. ohohoho~) -- croissant 25% off at tizi for breakfast -- pony comercial download -- dead as a doornail.

owhyeah, yesterday was fun >:D

why in god's name,why

i fucking hate confrontation.
i always end up getting hot-cold flushes thru my whole body.
and stutter.
stutter a LOT.


well the good thing is, is that i keep talking, i gradually end up being more firm an confident (if im right.if im not, i usually say sorry, then back down)
which is a good thing, and anyone would say ' its good then right?u learn frm ur mistakes, its a lesson to be learned,yaddayadda..'
i know that, ive always knew.
but that doesnt reduce my hatred towards that gesture.
i really really realy H A T E it.

backtrack 1

yesterday.thur,21 may.
-made damn experimental design tugas
-looklets
-muchas gracias lalataya for the chopsticks idea *3*!!!
-RAVIOLI BRUSSELS SPECIALOHGOD
-note to self : make list/markings of people's bday in june.
-airgear is added with dgreyman n hxh's hiatus.dammit.

wed, 20 may
-tendy bilang 'boy hr ini gayanya menyenangkan'. >:E kya~
-met tessy,her mum, n bf
-dwnload airgear n snsd w moko (ahahagoblok)

TUE,19 may *ingat:sosdes tu hr RABU.
-brangkat : ohoho1 lewat bermotor
pulang : ohoho2 atoz item
-dengan semangat membara dari hati : SOSDES.
i even watercolored my drawing.nice

mon, 18 may
-nyicil sosdes tindes ma lalat + LOOKLET,dmn lalat nginep n esok pagi2 dibangunin dito buat lingbin
-lingbin d tendy

sun, 17 may
-lingbin + gossip.kacrut
-koboy...spontanious urge to catch a movie and..
-ANGELS AND DEMONS. sweetness.
-..and another piece of gossip to tell.dammitWHY????

fri, 15 may
-starbucks 50%off w own tumbler/mug! ahei!
lalu melula n jln dr bip k dago plaza.lalu pulang

am i emotionly dead? may as well be a fuckin potato

oh my god, im even confused in what im SUPPOSED to look for while i was looking! i cant focus at all.
ok, i was looking for the person who drew for the manga C.A.T., i know the drawing so well, but i forgot who drew it, so i figured that i'll go check my already ORGANIZED folders.
and i looked.
and i looked...
and i looked.......
and all the while when browsing for the picture i was all 'what am i looking for?' and had to try to remember what i was looking for in the process of looking. and my head hurt so bad, in fact its still hurting now.
i cant believe the EFFORT i had to give for trying to figure out the reason i even started the mad hunt. babi.
its so fuckin furstrating thing to get all worked up an pissed over something that minor, and i cant even cry about it.

i want it so bad, believe me, but no matter what i do, how many sad stories get in my head, the best i could do is get all (only) misty-eyed and get my head hurt because of the sudden mood drop. labil tolol.

oh COME ON,can i at LEAST have SOMETHING to get shit off my back that doesnt include snapping to other people????

goddammit