the one post i know im going to regret and be embarrassed about in the morning, but still need to rant my ass off.

why is it that the people that piss me off the most these days are the ones close to me? both near and far in terms of 'reach'. i really fucking hate them to the bones these days, and wouldn't mind picking a fight with any of them any one to the point that i also wouldn't mind doing whatever even gravely injuring myself in the process as long as i come up victorious and can beat the crap out of them physically.

YOU stop bugging me.

YOU and YOU and YOU stop complaining over all the good things you have your way shut UP, other people have it far worse then you so shut the fucking up.

YOU just shut the fuck up LITERALLY. i just want to rip you vocal cords right out and bash your head to a wall and drag you across it, its ANNOYING OK???? not everyone can tolerate your high-dose of sunshine and flowers injected-self, OK?

YOU stop thinking you know everything because YOU DON'T. betcha didn't know about 'THIS' little information here dontcha?? ha ha FUCK.YOU.

YOU stop being a little pussy and an attention-whore. it's embarrassing, stop it.

YOU stop giving me false hope.

YOU fucking make up your mind and why don't you just be honest for once and spit it in my face that you just DONT WANT to meet me. I.DONT.MIND. i've already been a nice little girl and was honest about you and your stupid girlish boyfriend-obsession. and how you can't seem to SEE YOURSELF that your damn friend is BEYOND fed up with it. oh no, i had to FORCE FEED IT TO YOU FOR YOU TO NOTICE. ME. your goddamn friend since oh-so-long-ago. perlu angka pasti, perlu?? ok then: for more then 2 YEARS i have been a fucking tag-along in your fucking back seat and i'm SICK of it. i'm sick of you dragging me along only to watch you both be all loveydovey for half the day and ignoring me (who YOU invited to hang out you damn immature hypocrite bitch), then suddenly 'remember' that i'm there and go all "why are you so quiet? lo BT ya? yaudah deh yuk pulang aja.." like it's MY fault that the mood is ruined, but then act all guilty that it's your fault. what the hell man? might as well just not invite me anyplace until you're ready to be 'snatched' apart from your baby-pie.

YOU are the only person i can bare to be with right now but at the same time i know we're not supposed to because we are both dragging each other down, and that knowing we're exactly in the same boat (filling each others shit with an even worse version in equal measurements, balancing each other nicely) doesn't make the situation even better.

MAKAN TUH DRAMA QUEEN YOU FUCK.


if this keeps up, most possibly i'm probably am going to end up friendless after this.
hoorah hooray.