ooooohhh nnoooo

oh my. i'm starting to become like an old lady, where everything and anything can piss me off as easily as that *snap*.

who hates her neighbors.
who hates her friends who does wrong.
who hates her friends who doesn't do wrong.
who wants to slap anyone around who's too noisy.
who wants to chuck those hypocritical happy-go-lucky drama queens off a cliff.
who always thinks that the grass is greener on the other side.
who has turned into an idiotic idealist.
who thinks that her own 'rules' should apply to the whole damn world.
who wishes she can do some change in this corrupted world but doesn't know how to, therefore the only option is to fix herself but even that doesn't look that promising.
who wants to change but is terrified and uses complaints to distract herself from it, but is mad at herself for being such a whiny bitch.



please don't be scared of me. i hate it when that happens..

house moving cluster

ok, so for the past week since friday, i've been cooped up in my new house tidying up.
now, usually i'd be estatic, but since the renovation is still not yet finished because apparantly someone just had to drop by nearly every day to check on the progress and protest endlessly, thus, resulting the workers got quite pissed (unsaid, but the tension man, the tensioooooonn), resulting in them working half-heartedly, so that the progress is sllooow.

so there's no main cabinets and shelves put up yet, so we cannot start anything to decrease the amount of boxes OHMYGODTHEBOXES GA ABIS ABIS DONG. ahahahha. ha.

look guys! it's not yellow! hahaha

i was expecting to be able to help finish most of the rooms then, taking my time, i'd tidy up my own room :D.
i got the books all arranged in my BOOK CABINET tho (OHMYGODIHAVEABOOKCABINET. i've never had a proper one to CATEGORIZE :3 )

so anyway, in the past week i've only managed to do 1/10 of the things supposed to be handled..about..15?20 boxes? ya itulah.
and the rest i've only watch tv and break manson&zeus's fights.
fightS. yes, plural.*sigh*
it happens every frickin' day now (and i'm talking serious fights. like, if we didn't intervene, zeus would probably lose and, well..lose.)
today zeus even got some blood under his eye for messing with manson.

but yesterday was kinda ok: i packed 2 boxes of old books (masuk gudang); chose-categorize-and finally threw away (go me!) my old magazines; watch a coupla good movies on tv; and finally, after 2 years, re-vamped one of my treasured works i did in all my collage years :) .

uts nirmana 3D-first semester.
literally last minute made. one of those 'yaampun gitu doang ??' ones. got 80 :)
i didn't get many good grades on this subject (ironically, a in order to pass the product designer qualifications, you gotta be exceptionally good on this subject. hope i could get this back someday.)

pfft

....gemini & aquarius compatibility is 98%.



HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHUAHUAHUHAHAUUA
HUHAUHAA i saw it on a commercial on a certain channel last week actually but had to check if the info was true or not before i embarrass myself even more.

AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAAHAHHAHAAHAHHAHAHA and i have further degraded myself by checking it online and BAM:
gyahahhayaggahyahhayaahyayahyhahayhayhayhyaaamampusBODOAMAT

afternoon snacks :)

can always make me feel better after some stupid rant of mine like the post before :)

people these days

being that whether we like it or not, notice or not, we tend to seek attention from other people in our own ways. be it elaborately or with hidden meanings so as to not be so blatant about it. and the technology these days are supporting these actions even more by providing us with medias(?) to rant on.

blogs and that blasted twitter (fyi: a friend told me that indonesia is the 2nd country with the most active twitter accounts. even more proof that my country is pathetically beyond latah. for them i weep..no, scratch that. i'll just enjoy their stupidity from afar) some being private, but most are open for public consumption. mostly for sharing purpose, but these days its more used for attention-seeking purposes. from plainly expressing, hidden meaning messages hoping for others to respond or sympathize, to those angsty and blatantly asking for sympathy.

on one hand, i kind of feel sorry for whatever they're going through (however light or worse the case is, it's always going to be hard for the one facing it, so i'm not one to judge),
but on the other hand, enough already.
it's tiring to bump into one of your rants, or when you've finally avoid it altogether, you get slapped in the face with them in person ranting of self-centered-ly.

yes, if you end up with people who can just brush you off easily, but what about those who are just genuinely too nice for their own good and can't say 'no'?
you all are assholes for using these people to satisfy your own ego.
most don't even care about the others story (duh.). the type that 'asks' a question to the others, only to get the topic running and make it 'seem' as a 'universal topic' when it's actually just them trying to slip in their own story and make it all about them, completely ignoring other peoples 'sharing'.
(it's even uncommon for them if they dont cut other peoples sentences in putting in their 'important' oh so heartbreaking recent breakup drama. tut tut.). yawn. classic bastards.

but in an ironic way, i've got to thank these attention-seeking whores, because if it weren't for them to 'reflect' on, i probably would be one of them, or even when i do need to rant or be an attention seeking person, it wont be too obvious because of those god-level-of-angst people. hahahaha

"she told me i 'might' have some history behind my unrelaxed legs..."

I told you a story and once again you managed to steer away from it—meaning well, I know—because in doing this you mean to share your personal life-knowledge so that I am able to help myself (to be able to simplify things, to be exact, so ‘stress’ is avoided).

But in between that, I couldn’t seem to shake that nagging feeling that you were actually trying to avoid the matter altogether because you are personally frustrated for not being able to fully understand the matter in hand.

And you do this and always in the end think that I’ve agreed with you and had dropped the matter for good, but sadly I haven’t (only agreed because you ‘hinted’ that you don’t want to elaborate on it).I hope to one day find a way to help you avoid being frustrated so we can always really end a discussion, with problem-solving results of course.

overloaded

had a really nice weekend last week with ayu litya :DD!
but now am enjoying staying home and resting like some grandma with her stack of novels (not mangas. yess) while occasionally using my computer (considered a good accomplishment, seeing how i became quite addicted till my ass got cramped a couple of times -___-)

will update later because i'm too lazy right now (too lazy even to re-blog). hahaha

wow.

you can't come out to play because that time of the month renders you helpless?
oldest trick in the book.
but what's that? sugar-pie is allowed to come over?
remember well dear, it was, again, you who invited me over.

when this passes of course i'd want to meet you the next time you propose a play date, but i will never forget that, now, i really really hate you you hypocritical egoistic opportunist bitch.

now i see how your sister gets that people-using trait from.
she learned from the best.

but hey, it was fruitful...at least now, i know how to stand clear of assholes like you in the future.

thanks a lot 'pal'.

ONE PIECE

yes luffy, go tame the kraken.

...and so on and so forth.

just keeps getting better and better these days! ya-hah!
i MUST get the color walk 4: EAGLE! and rumor has it color walk 5 is about to come out.
MARI MENABUNG!!

also goes for the continuous ones i've been reading (with the ultimate exception of bleach).

hope that whatever i end up doing in the future, i can still have time (tch, of course.) to read all of them and all the potentially good new ones to come :D.

and for one piece specifically , i must thank my friend betet for it, who bought the first volume asal-asalan but ironically never continued reading it beyond the first 10 volumes. hahaha

domo arigatou gozaimaaaasu ~~

singabub haul

i...need to control myself.
HAHAHAHA
(for others this is prob nothing, but for diandra this is a wee bit too much.ahahah super kalap)

singabub day 4

25 July 2010


we mostly spent our time lazing about in ata's apartment, enjoying our (me and litya's) moment of freedom. freedom=no mothers on vacation. hahaha

we only went out for lunch at holland street at wendy's and to another un-named (will.get.there.) ice cream parlor. and for the first time in my life, i ordered VANILLA ice cream. vanilla honey to be exact. it was so goooooood *melts*

on the way back, we went on a bit of last minute pit-stop to get our short pants and flats at cotton on, and with me and giri stopping by at breadtalk where i found this mouthwatering slice of buttery breakfast toast...regrets not buying more.

we went back, did some more lazing and another dose of old spice and double rainbow *grins*

then we went out for coffee (hot teh tarik, cold teh tarik, hot milo and a cold milo tho) at hani's--this uber kul 24 HOURS that was merely a 10 minute walk from ata's apartment. and we just sat there with all the time in the world, gossiping and lashing out at a documentary that was playing on tv (gymnastic chinese boys, no older then 15, being told by their coach that they're a failure because they didn't come in frickin first place. assholes.

it was a really nice last-day :)

singabub day 3

lets continue and ignore the fact that this was suppose to come up ages ago diandra. ah well, yang penting KOMIT! hahahah

24 July 2010

breakfast!

cool lady in front otw to haji lane and arab street~

was ok, not fab but ok, but loved the ice cream parlor to death.
haji lane and arab street.

*dammit i forgot the ice cream parlors name! will get back to it laterata and her precious (creepy talking) woody.haha

we went to...bras basah? ya itulah. to get litya's beloved kacang arab that she couldn't find

anywhere--even at mustafa--buat papa tercintaa. hahaha
...and encountered this beauty

then after...no. before..? YA ITULAH.
ata took us to this korean street food vendor (dae gak? dae gap? WILL GET THERE)
she swore this was one of the best pork she's had, so we went there...

...and saw GOD.and died then and there.

we we're like toddlers given ice cream and both just shut the hell up and tagged along ata and giri upfront munching and savoring all the way. hahahah BEYOND

oh yes, i am giddy all over

looking forward to fridayyyyy >XD~~~~!!!!!
can't wait to meet them and each bearing 'treasures' of 'wisdom'. bahahah
kangen nyampah dan bego2an :D~

the one post i know im going to regret and be embarrassed about in the morning, but still need to rant my ass off.

why is it that the people that piss me off the most these days are the ones close to me? both near and far in terms of 'reach'. i really fucking hate them to the bones these days, and wouldn't mind picking a fight with any of them any one to the point that i also wouldn't mind doing whatever even gravely injuring myself in the process as long as i come up victorious and can beat the crap out of them physically.

YOU stop bugging me.

YOU and YOU and YOU stop complaining over all the good things you have your way shut UP, other people have it far worse then you so shut the fucking up.

YOU just shut the fuck up LITERALLY. i just want to rip you vocal cords right out and bash your head to a wall and drag you across it, its ANNOYING OK???? not everyone can tolerate your high-dose of sunshine and flowers injected-self, OK?

YOU stop thinking you know everything because YOU DON'T. betcha didn't know about 'THIS' little information here dontcha?? ha ha FUCK.YOU.

YOU stop being a little pussy and an attention-whore. it's embarrassing, stop it.

YOU stop giving me false hope.

YOU fucking make up your mind and why don't you just be honest for once and spit it in my face that you just DONT WANT to meet me. I.DONT.MIND. i've already been a nice little girl and was honest about you and your stupid girlish boyfriend-obsession. and how you can't seem to SEE YOURSELF that your damn friend is BEYOND fed up with it. oh no, i had to FORCE FEED IT TO YOU FOR YOU TO NOTICE. ME. your goddamn friend since oh-so-long-ago. perlu angka pasti, perlu?? ok then: for more then 2 YEARS i have been a fucking tag-along in your fucking back seat and i'm SICK of it. i'm sick of you dragging me along only to watch you both be all loveydovey for half the day and ignoring me (who YOU invited to hang out you damn immature hypocrite bitch), then suddenly 'remember' that i'm there and go all "why are you so quiet? lo BT ya? yaudah deh yuk pulang aja.." like it's MY fault that the mood is ruined, but then act all guilty that it's your fault. what the hell man? might as well just not invite me anyplace until you're ready to be 'snatched' apart from your baby-pie.

YOU are the only person i can bare to be with right now but at the same time i know we're not supposed to because we are both dragging each other down, and that knowing we're exactly in the same boat (filling each others shit with an even worse version in equal measurements, balancing each other nicely) doesn't make the situation even better.

MAKAN TUH DRAMA QUEEN YOU FUCK.


if this keeps up, most possibly i'm probably am going to end up friendless after this.
hoorah hooray.

Lesson #1

since it's been quite some time me and my friends have endlessly complain about the hygiene condition in our beloved country (i bet other countries are just as bad, but hey, let's just start small shall we), i've decided to 'do' something about it: making manuals for my own personal amusement. nyahahahahhahaa who knew those disgusting bitches all around could be beneficial to me...at least i'm 'doing' something :p (beyond idiotic justification).
anyways, enjoy~

if i could stuff my shoe cupboard...

top would be my casual wear - bottom would be my semi-formal/formal wear

owyeahh.

today's list is :

• happy halloween!!!
• if i were still doing my final project, i would most definitly be wearing my 'costume' all day eating candy and chocolate until i vomit (costume: a t-shirt with 'PREVIEW TA, MONDAY' and wrap myself with a gloomy aura for 'decorations' to top it.ahahaha)
• tvtropes.org is my own personal version of 9gag.com for geeks and such. ihihihi~
  
• in a way i can't wait to get back to bandung to nyampah, get 'rejuvinating' dvd's, and treat myself to a nice meal, but on the other hand i know i won't stand (yet. YET. am in progress tho) seeing all my friends and their final projects' preview and sort. i'll just try not to get myself into that crowd when they're talking about that subject, but when they do (it's inevitable usually...completely understandable of course) i'll just have to suck it up and press down that pouty little pissed off bitch inside me and not let my 'dark aura' effect other people and ruin the mood for everyone. so i might not be at their 2nd preview and support them from afar (tsssahhh)...i will be able to bare it. baby steps man, baby steps~
• why oh why must you piss me off on a daily basis????
• note to self: browse for you target bitch.
• note to self: ayo yang serius dong belajar jepangnya! go get song lyrics and translate them both ways. and story books! kata lalataya it works! hahahaha
  

aim number one

definitely no regrets.
because if i don't pass that one first off, then i'm fucked.

oh and on a 'high' note: visits to jakarta is 90% crappy hell and today was one of them and i ended up getting my palms hurt for too much vigorous surface slapping and head hurt.
and (finally after a long time) i just had a free breakfast buffet and got to pet a big flabby 40kg puppy rottweiler. bullocks

bayangin.makan beginian dan masih dirusak mood-nya.hebat.hebat.

random facts

• i sometimes regret showing it because it's pretty much embarrassing when flaunted.
• im told to just rant if i want but im already too tired so meh
• i wish reeses peanut butter ice cream still existed in jakarta
• strong urge to travel but am still scared of unknown (yet) reasons.
• my butt hurts from too much sitting statically
• i really enjoy learning japanese though it's still kind of hard for me to memorize the conversations in depth, so im trying to focus on learning (at least) the characters
• still can decide whether to master a single talent or to try a lot but only know the basics? or master everything im interested in? ahahah
• the coffee shop near my house was closed so i still want to go get some but too lazy to go out too far
• i bent/rammed/bumped my mom's injekan mobil (english?) when trying to find parking space at RSPI yesterday
• i forgot RSPI's parking lot is a pain in the ass
• now that i finally want to move my ass for my final assignment, i can't. an this time it's not my fault :<
• KOREAKE
• mau koreake di pemerawanan mobil bitch. hahaha
• wish there was a park nearby like they have in abroad so i can just sit/read a book/play with dogs
• i'm bored off my ass but i still don't know what to do
• am slowly progressing in accepting (though still with much protest in my head. very loud ones at that.)
• i'm scared shitless.
• hope bunda finds the perfume i want out of the 4 options i gave her (kenzo l'eupar, j.lo miami glow, hugo boss deep red, or elizabeth arden's green tea)

oh yeah, found some pretty bottles when browsing for perfume request:

boxes!
this is a limited edition macaroon box. it's so pretty. i WANT it.


MINTY! woody! basil! BLACK PEPPER (penasaran kan???!!)!
recommended for both day and night wear pula.

but since i haven't smelled it up close, i'm afraid to be disappointed, either it'd be too nyongnyong or too euh :p. but i mean come on, it has MINT in it (idiotic justification)! hahahaha..and the bottle is nice :3
ooh! look what i found! bisa diganti2 pula isinya! lips-eyes-cheek!

oh that hit the spot

until now i'm still not sure why i was laughing like an idiot so much it brought tears to my eyes. could be one of those things, that "hits the spot at the right timing" thing... so it could possibly not be funny to others except for the party encountering the situation. hahahaha

on tvtropes.org that i stumbled upon (yay, i found it again!) were situations in mangas under the label "it got worse":

• on Bleach: Bleach probably sets the new record for most iterations of "got worse" in a single 20 page issue, with the release of chapter 364. Two of the best captains get downed in 3 pages, without any buildup or warning. Then two of the best Espada are revealed to still be alive in another 4 pages. Then Aizen, Tosen, and Gin are freed from the Blazing Fortress that Yamamoto had trapped them in at the start of the fight by the weirdass thing that Wonderweiss came in with, free to do as they please, and right in front of Kira and several of his injured buddies. While the last page hints at a Big Damn Heroes moment by a certain third party, it's going to be have to be pretty damn big to make a difference at this point.
  • Let's put it this way: Tite Kubo is in love with the Big Damn Heroes trope. However, in order for Big Damn Heroes to be required, things must first look very bleak indeed. Thus, events in Bleach tend to get constantly worse until someone shows up to save the day, at which point things briefly get better before quickly going to Hell again in order to set it up for someone new to come save the day.
    • That "oh shit" moment of Aizen's? Yeah, that was actually Hinamori getting shanked, while Aizen sauntered off to kill all the helpless vice-captains.
    • Those vice-captains? It was actually three CAPTAINS and the Vizard leader... In one move... Ouch.
  • In chapter 406, Aizen drops Isshin, Urahara and Yoruichi in one shot, and then goes to the Soul Society to try and destroy Karakura Town. All we know now is that Isshin is alive, and that Aizen has a mullet.
• on Naruto: In Naruto this occurs during Pain's invasion of Konoha. Having already killed Jiraiya and coerced Sasuke into joining him, he then runs amuck, tearing souls out of people, launching massive amounts of ordinance at homes and orphanages, summoning monstrosities, and disturbing the peace. He confronts Tsunade and proceeds to rip the soul out of Shizune, gaining the hidden location of Naruto. The village is in ruins, shinobi are dead, and the secret they tried to protect is lost to the Big Bad. And then Pain NUKES KONOHA.

• on One Piece: During the One Piece Sabaody Archipelago arc, the Marine Admiral and his subordinates are picking the Straw Hats apart one by one. And then Bartholomew Kuma shows up to utterly annihilate them.
• • Think rock bottom has been reached? Oh ho, think again. The whole Whitebeard War arc is pretty much one big It Got Worse, and we have still yet to reach the Godzilla Threshold.
  • End result: Blackbeard's crew killed Whitebeard after he was already wounded, Blackbeard has the Gura Gura/ Tremor Tremor Fruit along with his own, rendering him the most powerful pirate alive (P.S, this is also the man who released dozens of criminals from prison who were so vile that they were erased from history, meaning the new strongest pirate in the world is fucking batshit). And to add further pain, guess what happened to Luffy, the childish, happy go lucky protagonist? He watched his brother die in front of him after he went through hell (6 levels of it to be exact) to rescue him from death and becomes mentally fubar. "Whitebeard War" Saga? Try "The World Is Now Shot To Hell" Saga.

everyday wear

everyday wear by trendsetters featuring fossil jewelry

if i lived abroad my wardrobe would be pretty much a continuity of this. hahaha

nooooo nonononononooo

that's whats been in my head since yesterday over and over again every time i remember it and try to accept.

i knew i wouldn't like the answer i knew it i knew it i knew it i knew it i knew it i knew it i knew it i knew it i'm refusing endlessly until now but in order to not let all the time, energy and money spent, i have to accept it or else the damn cycle will just go on and on again and i'm going to hate myself even more and feel like an idiot for hating myself.

just hurry up and BE GONE so i can really use our 'religion' as a 'refreshment' to get my fighting spirit back to do the assignment instead of still feeling crappy afterwords(such a waste of 'religion'.hahaha)

happy birthday maniesss~

*reblogged from lalit

Met Ultah Tendy! 12 October 2010
enjoy dahhling >:3~~~

wow. just wow.

Rain Talkasia Transcript

Wednesday, December 14, 2005 Posted: 0639 GMT (1439 HKT)

LH: Lorraine Hahn
R: Rain

LH: Rain, welcome to Talk Asia. It's so nice to see you. Tell me, why did you use the name Rain.

R: Before I made my debut, I was talking to my producer about which stage name to use. He said that I give an impression of sadness when I'm dancing. So I decided on the character "Bi" which means sadness, as sad as rain falling. That's why I chose this name.

religion

it's official.
we now have a new religion: rainism.
all hail rain.

*till this very moment every wahyu that has been brought upon us still haunts me every second. especially that fresh new one from lalataya. go yo ma bro yow-- *nangis darah*




*BUTWAITTHERE'SMORE*
because of his beyond-ness charm i guess hahaha, turnes out lalataya posted the same thing on hers and kindly reminded me of this fact:
here's proof of our everlasting undying faith: we each bought a dvd of him.

2 years later

homaGAWD thank you WIBI!!!
huahahahahhahahaha i was just thinking 'baaaahh, when will the one month wait END???' in the afternoon, and when i got back at 12ish last night i saw wibi's message.
men. merinding nonstop on every page XDDDDDD~~~~~~~~

gahhh..this is the only series that i wouldn't mind to not end EVER.

ok at least hit volume 100 or something.gahahahahahaaa

day 10 - A Picture That Makes You Happy

hoo hah

woke up - pancakes - japanese class with chita - racun dunia 5 to 12 - went out to either mindlessly listen to swapped conversations or 'join' those lost in their private thoughts. very nice to be around people who let you stare aimlessly and doesn't emit that negative 'aura' (unlike some people) that makes other people feel as shitty as they are and ends up being a moodkill for the entire damn group. i really like that bunch :j - couldn't sleep yet tapi gagal download racun duniaHAHAHHAHA - browsed aimlessly - cao


oh one more thing: GO BELER >:C!! huahahha
(arkin, from the bangsat (gore-wise) but actually pretty good movie The Collector that i watched at teater cassandra (renewed teater lili.ahahhaha) with wibi ata giri ain ando last 'vacation'.

yay!

suddenly remembered this drawing that Ata made of me :)
upload aaahh~

fact?

i'm mostly terrified if all the things in my head all these times were actually made up or delusional.
but who knew that i'd be even more terrified if the answer ends up being, ''yes, it's all true."

baka

......dumbass moment aside:

Eiichiro Oda is one of the sickest mangaka i know.
besides being ridiculously creative character wise, story wise, story flow-wise, idiotic scenes-wise, etc; the cool thing i like about this guy, is how he utilizes them to their
maximum potential, and doesn't let any character/power go to waste...they get recognition in many ways, big or small, but you'd remember them easily.

and after an arc ends, and they pop up again in the future arcs (like the character or not), i'd end up feeling like meeting an old friend :).

i mean, come on, Mr.3 against Magellan?? who've thought?
(well, not me at least.hehe).

things to do in the near future

while enduring that thing that's been a wretched slab of ass in my mind even before i got plunged into it:

1. "Pot Of" for lalataya and tendy (yes bitches, i will get it done.hahaha)
2. make Ndut's cook book present
3. make/buy (most likely the latter) a scrapbook for all my scattered scraps
4. buy surgeon mask for our future night runnings
5. try to actually get those movies i've wanted to watched for so long

fact :

just when you thought you weren't important, you are.
and just when you thought you were important, you aren't.

tough luck to you then.

it's nice to remember that things like this can still happen

aaaaah the little things :)~