oh no

no.no.no.nonononononononoooooo
i can't believe it has come to this method for my budget problems. out of EVERYTHING, why do i have to use this one???? but on the other hand, i was stupid enough to not use it since ages ago. though i really wish i could do this purely because i love doing it, i have to seriously pursue tari bali for it once more. gaaahh..

i still can't believe i've realized this from her and her stupid status.babi.

*ironically, i was just telling hinge that i was going to find a way to cover my own budget to go to san diego next july, so i don't have to ask money from my parents :p

**so this is why He gave me a KP place in jakarta instead of in bandung (just yesterday i was mooning over why couldn't just fight for the damn KP in bandung, so i can continue to play softball. turns out it's for this. i thank You deeply.)